What a month! I won’t be sad to see the merry month of May fade away this year. While I experienced many joys it seemed that for every positive a negative soon followed. I was able to weather through it though, shove aside the drama, and as a family we are stronger than ever. There are a few things that bear repeating and reminders to myself so here is a quick run down.
1. Never underestimate the power of pure love. Or pure meanness.
2. I’m sorry is a phrase best used when you break a plate. There are some things that are unforgivable and just saying “sorry” is an insult to whomever you have wronged. As is continuing to push boundaries, force forgiveness, or act like nothing is wrong.
3. Actions speak louder than words
4. Knowing without a doubt that you are doing the right thing however unpopular it is to the masses is the best feeling in the world.
5. It’s never to late to start over. I give myself permission to start over as many times as I need to become whole. Healing takes time, patience, and love of self.
I came to the personal realization long ago that my Momster did not have the mental abilities, caring, or control over her bad behavior to behave in a sane fashion towards me or my family. I choose not to be around dramatic, harmful behavior or have my children witness that. The fact that she continues to push my boundaries, do hurtful things, lie, etc.. is not only insulting and uncalled for but it further reinforces my beliefs that I am making the right decisions. So due to the past months events I am now 110 percent positive that this person is not only harmful to me but will go to any lengths to lie about me, cause problems for me, and gaslight me. *Gaslighting defined…
Even though Momster making contact was horrible and upsetting, I now have more of a feeling of peace about my decisions. No matter who tells me that they do not understand why I stopped talking to her or feel I should forgive her, that does not matter. I can now feel ok about my decision. No one traveled my path but me and the people in my life that support me are the ones who matter.